Bursting my Bubble

When I lived in Tampa I was somewhat of an introvert. I lived there for over 16 years and was very comfortable.  Probably too comfortable.  I had my friends and family there and I didn’t think I needed much else.  I didn’t go out to meet new people, I just did what I was most comfortable with and that was it.  I hesitated whenever I was asked to go out of my comfort zone.  I felt very uncomfortable in places I did not know with people I did not know.  And if you know my husband and his job, that wasn’t a good quality to have. 

With MacKay involved in politics and with his job being in public relations, we met new people all the time.  There were times where I would literally be sick before going places because I feared what other people would think of me.  I did not like to leave the comfort of the bubble I enclosed myself in.

When I found out that we were moving to NYC, I knew that I would need to get over my fears and get out and meet people.  I was comforted with the fact that I have my sister here and a few friends from high school.  But in the back of my mind I knew that having them here would make it very easy for me to fall back into my old ways and stick with what’s comfortable.  I didn’t want to do that.  Not in a city with so much to do and so many opportunities.  So I didn’t.

I began researching as many moms groups and baby things to do in the city.  I went to the events and met people.  Some I didn’t click with, some I did. 

Tonight I am going to an event by myself.  An event where I know no one.  This type of thing would have NEVER happened in Tampa.  I would decline an offer like this because it would just make me too sick to even think about.  But not tonight.  Tonight I will not be getting sick, but excited.  Tonight I will burst open the bubble that I have been stuck in too long.  And for that, I find myself excited and anxious at the same time.  Yet another adventure this city has brought me.