Last night I went to a sneak peak of the new Katherine Heigel movie, “Life as we know it” In short it’s about a non-dating or married couple that are left with an orphaned baby after her parents were killed in a car accident. After seeing the previews for the movie it looked funny and witty. I had no idea that I needed to bring tissues to it! It made me think of my time as a mom and how sensitive I’ve become since.
Before I had Harlan I always had a tough exterior. Wouldn’t let anything get to me. I could watch any movie or show involving kids and it wouldn’t affect me in the least. Now, I need to bring a box of tissues to anything that involves kids. Not all are tears of sadness, most are tears of happiness and being grateful. I watch Harlan interacting or dancing in one of her play classes and I find myself tearing up. What is it about becoming a mom that makes us so sensitive to everything?
I came home from my movie last night and Harlan had woken up crying. Ususally I would have reacted as any mom would of a baby that has waken up late at night, with a sign an a moan. But last night I happily went into her room and rocked her and cried. She layed her head on my chest and held me tightly and I softly told her how much I loved her and would do anything for her. It was such a special moment and one that I will always cherish.
Before becoming a mom, no one will ever be able to describe to you how much love you will have for your child. It is like no other love than I have ever experienced in my life. It is passionate, self sacrificing love. I just hope that as Harlan grows up she can continue to feel the love that I have for her.
P.S. Harlan got her a brand new pair of UGGS from Mimi today and hasn’t wanted to take them off since. She put them on first thing this morning when she woke up. Here are a few pics of her strutting her stuff!
