When I lived in Tampa I was somewhat of an introvert. I lived there for over 16 years and was very comfortable. Probably too comfortable. I had my friends and family there and I didn’t think I needed much else. I didn’t go out to meet new people, I just did what I was most comfortable with and that was it. I hesitated whenever I was asked to go out of my comfort zone. I felt very uncomfortable in places I did not know with people I did not know. And if you know my husband and his job, that wasn’t a good quality to have.
With MacKay involved in politics and with his job being in public relations, we met new people all the time. There were times where I would literally be sick before going places because I feared what other people would think of me. I did not like to leave the comfort of the bubble I enclosed myself in.
When I found out that we were moving to NYC, I knew that I would need to get over my fears and get out and meet people. I was comforted with the fact that I have my sister here and a few friends from high school. But in the back of my mind I knew that having them here would make it very easy for me to fall back into my old ways and stick with what’s comfortable. I didn’t want to do that. Not in a city with so much to do and so many opportunities. So I didn’t.
I began researching as many moms groups and baby things to do in the city. I went to the events and met people. Some I didn’t click with, some I did.
Tonight I am going to an event by myself. An event where I know no one. This type of thing would have NEVER happened in Tampa. I would decline an offer like this because it would just make me too sick to even think about. But not tonight. Tonight I will not be getting sick, but excited. Tonight I will burst open the bubble that I have been stuck in too long. And for that, I find myself excited and anxious at the same time. Yet another adventure this city has brought me.
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The Alstons
YAY! So proud of you… Now we need to plan a visit!
Swanky Baby's Mom
Great blog, now following you from MBC! Looking forward to reading more!
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